I'm just going to vent.. don't mind me.
Posted: Mon Aug 26, 2019 9:46 am
It has been really close to a year since I kicked my ex out. I am finally figuring things out, but really why do people still need to say "you'll find someone when you aren't looking?" Or "he's still out there for you?"
I don't want a HE and I don' believe that there is someone out there waiting to "love" me. Do I want to date, sure, it seems like it could be fun (I've never really dated) and would I love to have S*x again sometime? YES
But do I think those things are wrapped up in my finding this mythical "love of my life" not at all. If I say something I'm being negative. I am not negative, I am realistic. And I know what I am capable of, I don't want another person living with me and my kids, that was a nightmare and I'll never put them through that again. I also don't want to feel obligated to someone.
It just sometimes gets on my nerves. If people are in love and have lasting relationships, I am happy for them. But that is not what I want at all.
GRRRRR, That is my vent.
I don't want a HE and I don' believe that there is someone out there waiting to "love" me. Do I want to date, sure, it seems like it could be fun (I've never really dated) and would I love to have S*x again sometime? YES
But do I think those things are wrapped up in my finding this mythical "love of my life" not at all. If I say something I'm being negative. I am not negative, I am realistic. And I know what I am capable of, I don't want another person living with me and my kids, that was a nightmare and I'll never put them through that again. I also don't want to feel obligated to someone.
It just sometimes gets on my nerves. If people are in love and have lasting relationships, I am happy for them. But that is not what I want at all.
GRRRRR, That is my vent.